Every time Facebook pops up with the message "A year ago today..." I usually end up crying because the post is most likely about Ireland. But the message popped up this morning and the first thing I did was smile. I don't know if this means I'm healing, or if it's just such a fond memory that I can't help but smile at it. Either way, it was a lovely feeling.
A year ago today I got to surprise my parents in Phoenix, AZ. It was my cousin's wedding weekend and I told only a few family members that I was coming (aside from my parents) and when they finally made it to the hotel, I got to give them a wonderful surprise. I wish I had recorded the reunion because my mom's face was priceless and still makes me laugh even a year later.
Although last year at this time was amazing, getting to see my cousins and family - I was also a bit run down because I was still living abroad unemployed. I was terrified that I'd only be staying in Ireland for another month instead of the six months left of my trip since I wasn't making any money. I really wish I could give a call to myself a year ago and tell her that everything is going to be wonderful. That she's about to get a job offer from what's going to be her favorite job ever, and that she's about to have the best six months of her life. I wish I could tell her to keep her chin up because despite the "shit show" that was the first couple of months in Ireland, it's all about to be worth it. How even six months after leaving the country, she's still going to be homesick and telling people off when she calls Dublin her home and they keep correcting her. I wish I could tell her that holding her nephew for the first time will be one of the happiest memories she'll ever have and that while leaving Ireland will be the hardest, she'll survive.
Until next time,
Catherine
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